June 2003

My first big experience was in June 2003 when Bimal Pandey guided me through meditation.  We went up above the world past the stars and then there was a white sheet with the name Vishnu on it in gold. Then I went past this white sheet and there was a door I walked through this door and to my amazement there was all the gods and goddesses to greet me. I felt so much happiness, love and bliss, I felt like I had come home.  All the gods and goddess were beautifully dresses in bright colours, adorned with gold glowing from head to toe with splendour and power.  I did namaskar to each and every god and goddess there.  There were some who I recognised by the knowledge taught to me by Bimal and some who I did not (I was new to spirituality at that time and knew little about the gods). I saw lord Shiva, Maa Parvati, Maa Laxmi, Maa Durga, lord Ganesha, lord Vishnu and many others.  They all gave me blessings.  Then I came back down to earth back into my body. It took me a while to find myself again.  I wanted to go back so much I could believe I had such a fantastic and beautiful first experience.

After that I had visions of the gods and goddesses they did not say anything they would appear and give me blessing and then disappear. I kept on having visions of a goddess in a white sari she came to me three or four times.  The goddess would flow in my vision with black long hair blowing with the breeze and she would smile at me and then disappear.  I wanted to know who it was that was visiting me.  I went on the internet and looked up all the goddesses and there she was Maa Saraswati exactly as I versioned her with youthfulness, beauty and grace.

July 2003

Bimal Pandey gave me a tape of the Gayatri mantra and I would play it all the time and would chant the mantra.  Whilst I was tidying in the living room I looked at a special beautiful picture Bimal had given to us after a pooja. I stopped and said Maa Gayatri if you are real please give me a sign.  Then I heard a voice in my mind say I will give you a sign, there will be a yellow flower in front of my picture one way or another by the end of the day then the voice went.  I kept coming back to the picture and there was nothing there.  After a while I forgot about it and carried on with my duties.  I bought some flowers and put them in a vase in the prayer room upstairs.  When I came back downstairs in the sink was a yellow flower thinking nothing of it I put it in front of the picture of Gayatri Maa.  I was about to walk of and then the words of Gayatri Maa came back in to my head and I looked and infront of picture there was a yellow flower (which i had placed).  Gayatri Maa did say one way or another there will be a yellow flower infront of my picture.  I thought I will never doubt these visions and dreams again because they are real.  I told Bimal Pandey and he said yes the gods and goddess do not come down to you for no reason if you do see them they are real you cannot make them up. 

September 2003

After I had my daughter Jaya Bimal and his lovely wife Parmjeet Pandey came to visit us.  Bimal asked if I would like to meditate.  I said yes please so we went up past the stars and the same name came on the white sheet Vishnu.  I walked through the door and I could see a lot of people running away in a panic as if they were scared of something.  Then I saw Sai Shirdi Baba was walking calmly in the opposite direction he was wearing white had a walking stick.  He came closer to me and said “BE CAREFUL WHO YOU TRUST” very clearly I heard his words. Then Sai Shirdi Baba carried on walking out of my vision.

February 2004

When my daughter Jaya was born she was very premature and stayed in special care for three months.  We found out she had Cerebral palsy.  She would suffer so much her legs would spasm; she would get very bad stomach pains.  She had two hernias and would scream in agony every time each came out. We took her to the hospital and by the time the doctor came to see Jaya it went back in.  The doctor told us to massage it back in whenever it came out.  So we came home then the next day it came out again and she was crying so much.  It took me about five minutes to massage it back in this happened for another week once or twice every couple of days. I was so upset that she had to go through this she was suffering so much.  I sat in my prayer room and cried so much. I was so worried about my baby what must she be feeling and how she must be suffreing. I Was so upset I asked Shiva Shakti "why is this happening? how much pain does a child have to got through she if in agony why cant you just give her a break". (I was quite angry) Then I saw Lord Shiva and Maa Parvati standing in front of me they said to me “there is nothing to worry about the child will be fine she has to go through this it is her karma we are watching over you all things will get better”.  Seeing lord Shiva and Maa Parvati really put my mind at rest and gave me the strength to get on with things and be a positive and strong mother.  Jaya had two hernias and had both of the corrected by surgery.

September 2004

It was the first birthday of my daughter Jaya and we had a small gathering in the home.  On the morning after her birthday just before the time Jaya was born she was very restless I looked at her then at exactly the time jaya was born something caught my eye by the bedroom window there was a big black smoky manifestation there. I could feel evil pouring out of and I knew it was after Jaya (Jaya was in my bed).  I put my arms around her and started to chant the Gayatri Mantra I must have said it five or six times and then the entity disappeared and Jaya was calm and slept. I spoke to Bimal the next day and he said “yes I know this happened because the entity came to my house and smashed my window.  There were some bad negativity coming from a person who was in the house and it accumulated in to that force”.

November 2004

I was sitting in my prayer room, whilst praying I saw myself and Jagjeet my husband who was holding two girls in each arm and a little boy with his hands in the middle of the girls (by this time we had our second little girl Puja). All around us were black smoky figures surrounding us in a circle trying to attack us the world was so black and dead. I could see myself in a rage spraying out liquid from my mouth killing this evil around I was walking around my family in a circle slowly these bad entities went and in place of them there was a beautiful world starting to appear.  Grass, trees animals insects so much nature finally I killed of all these black figures and it was all so calm and natural just the way earth was created.  Once I had calmed down I saw  god and goddess Shiva and Shakti standing infront of me so happy smiling at me I did namaska to them and the both blessed me, Jagjeet and the children and told me had killed theses entities by chnting the Gayatri Mantra. Then they Disappeared.

 December 20th 2007 - 11.30pm

It was late in the evening and i was listening to beautiful Lord Shiva bhajans in my room.  When I closed my eyes I saw Lord Shiva Sitting in meditation so peacefully in bliss. Behind him there were bright colourful lights yellow, green, red and blue and the lights were flowing and dancing around the Lord. Lord Shiva lifted his head in my direction still with his eyes closed and all of a sudden his eyes opened and they were completely white no pupils nothing just white.  Then the snake from lord Shiva’s neck shot towards my face i got scared, I thought it was going to bite me.  It stopped right by my face and softly touched my cheek (as if it kissed me on my cheek).  Then the snake shot away back around Lord Shiva. Then the third eye of Lord Shiva (gyana chakshu) opened and a bright beam of light came out of it.  I could feel my spirit leave my body and travel towards the light.  I said to the lord “Please let me merge with you, please dear Lord”. I could feel my spirit float into the beam of glorious light and I disappeared inside and then it closed. And the Lord resumed his meditating position, eyes closed with the bright lights still dancing behind and I opened my eyes.

January 28th 2008 - 12.20am

Whilst I was praying to the Divine Aum Sri Bhagawan Sathya Sai Baba and Aum Sri Bhagawati Srimad Sai Rajarajeshwari I saw Lord Vishnu who was standing in front of a small crowd of people.  I was within the crowd behind a few people.  Lord Vishnu pointed a dark wooden carved stick at the face of a sad looking man, he then slammed this man on his head with his hand. The man was so happy after he ran away laughing and dancing because Lord Vishnu took out a bad entity from him by slamming him on the head. Then lord Vishnu touched and healed a few other people and then parted the crowd and stood in front of me.  He looked so radiant in all his glory glowing from head to toe in splendour and greatness. The Lord took me in his arms and gave me such a loving hug like a father would hug his child he dearly loves. He said to me “You will come with me when you go”.  He then stepped back and held my shoulders and looked at me smiled and said “I will come for you when it is your time”. Lord Vishnu then turned and started to walk away he looked back at me and transformed in to Lord Krishna and smiled then disappeared.